Day 9: Kathleen Francis Mitchell Behrends, my grandmother.

My grandmother's name is Kathleen Francis Mitchell Behrends, She was born on January 4th, 1940. She is 71 years of age as I type this, we just celebrated her 71st birthday in fact. She was born in Tucson, Arizona to Pearl and John Mitchell. And she is my everything. She means more to me than anyone I know, she has gotten me through the most tough times in my life. She has done so much for me, and for that I am eternally greatful. Im not perfect and I have done some pretty bad things, and all I can ask is that she forgive me because I was stupid and young when I did them and I didn't mean to hurt her or disappoint her, all I ever wanted was to make her proud. I love her more than anything in this world, and she is the only person who truely loves me for me. She never cared that I was over weight or not pretty, or whatever I thought I was. She thought I was beautiful no matter what, and she always loved me no matter what. I just wish that I could go back, and take those things back, and instead make them things she could be proud of. I don't think Ill ever be able to tell her these things for fear of her hating me. I never meant to hurt her, I just did what ever I could fit into a crowd I never belonged in, in the first place. No one ever liked me for me in the end anyway. I regret so many things and I wish that she knew how bad I truely felt about all the bad I have ever done in my life. I wanna be a good person, I wanna make her proud. I DON'T wanna end up like my mother. I'm trying so hard to be a person that will make her proud and I pray that god gives me the time to show her. I love her so much and I don't know what I would do with out her.

I love her so much<3

She is too cute<3

Cracker Barrel Flagstaff, AZ right before Christmas 2010. <3

She hates pictures, she always runs from me when I try to take them. But I love her so anyway :)

My grandmother is my rolemodel, my mother, my bestfriend and more. I hope I have her in my life for many many more years to come. I love you gramma, you mean so much to me. Thank you for everything you have every done for me, and thank you for everything you've done for the kittens, Alexz, and John. It means the world to me. <3 Love you. xoxo.

Day 8: A romantic dinner for two..

Today was a really good day, Lindsey finished my hair, I put my extensions in, John got approved for food stamps, and gramma went to Phoenix with Kevin for bussiness. Because we got the food stamps so late in the month we had to use them before they renew on the 10th. So John and I decided why not have a romantic dinner for two, since we haven't ever gotten the chance. We went to Safeway and bought sirloin medallions, sourdough bread for garlic bread, Boston Creme Pie for dessert, Sparkling Apple Cider because I cant drink alcohol due to my liver and strawberries. I decorated the dining room table, John grilled the steaks, and the night was perfect :) <3

This is what my hair looks like now that my sister frosted it and after me and my gramma died it. I like it suprisingly. Lol.

Here you can see my feather extensions which I have been waiting to put in for a week now, I have been so excited about them. I was so happy to finally be able to put them in and wear them.

This is the wonderful dinner for two me and my hunny prepared :) It was amazing! <3

My hunny sitting down to out lovely dinner<3 :)

Me and my hunny after our romantic dinner for two.<3 :)

Us again after our very yummy dinner<3 I love him so much.

Thats the last of the pics of tonight, I just wanted to write a real quick blog since I missed a day because Ive been really sleepy due to the HCG drops. And now im off to sleepy land<3 Nighties.

Day : A basket full of little loves.

I decided when I woke up that I was going to do another photo shoot with my babies, since they are growing up so fast. I found the perfect basket that I could place them in and take some really cute photo's (if only they would cooperate ha ha HA!). Everytime I was about to take the best photo yet my camera would die, SO I have to make due with the ones I got. Roxie didn't wanna chill with the rest of the group so most of them are of Tiger and Marley.

Marley Maelee after eating her delicious dinner<3 Haha look at that messy, wessy face :)

The only good picture they let me get of them all together in the basket. It would have been a really good concept if I had all the professional elements, but its good enough for me :)

Baby girl Mar Mar playing in the crinkled paper thats inside the basket, they all seemed to be mesmerized by the paper, ha ha.

Brother and sister Marley & Tiger were the only ones to cooperate for momma's little photo shoot with them<3

And the last good one I got of them together. I ended up having to crop a lot of the photo's because Roxie kept jumping out and running around on the bed chewing on the crinkled paper. I'm going to try this one, one more time when my camera is fully charged and the kids are a little more worn out.. ha ha we will see how it goes, but for now time to write my other blog and off to bed! Gotta take momma kitty to the doctor to get her stitches out and look at different hair dye so I can dye my hair before I get my FEATHER extensions :) Soo excited ha ha :) Nighties.

Day 6: Oh the weather outside is frightful..

I woke up this morning to a slight cover of snow on the ground, and more to come on the way. The skies were gray and bright all through-out the night, you could hear the wind howling all night, a sign of a bad storm coming our way. I hate the cold and wet specially when mixed together. I just hope I get to make some use of all this snow this time. I wanna go sledding!! I wanna get high off my ass and go tubing down Cyclone Mountain at sunrise. :) Ha ha.

This is the sight in my yard, well was.. it keeps snowing more and more. I love how the tree's look with snow on them, it's so pretty<3 But I wish we could have the pretty of the snow, and the warmth of winter<3 Ha ha yeah right!

 This is what it looked like when John took me to go get my last treat for the next 31 days, an Old Fashioned Rootbeer Float. I officially start my 500 calories a day diet tomorrow. Its going to be a long, tough road but I am going to stick to it no matter how hard it gets because I know it works, I have done this diet before. And I want this, I want to lose the weight so I can look better and feel better. My goal weight by summer is between 150 and 160. I know I can do it. <3 :) And I can't wait for summer to prove to everyone!

My baby girl Marley Maelee fast asleep in my lap. She is such an angel when she sleeps, however when she is awake she is a pistol full of fire. <3 She is so beautiful, and precious. I love her to pieces.

And here she is again, in color and a full little kitty body shot, she was fast asleep on her back in momma's lap, puring away. She makes my heart melt every time I see her cute face! <3

Time to sip some hot cocoa, smoke, and get ready for a long day ahead of me tomorrow filled with lots of make-up, hair, and school. Oh happy day.  Can't wait to snuggle with my snuggle bunny in my nice warm bed, nighties.<3

Day 5: For the love of Hello Kitty!!

As most everyone knows I love EVERYTHING Hello Kitty. I have over 1000 items with Hello Kitty on them. Anytime I see anything HK I am sure to buy it before someone else does. I have everything from a Hello Kitty Guitar with a matching pick, to a matching Gumball and Water Dispenser set. Here are a few of my favourite Hello Kitty items that I own.

This is my Hello Kitty guitar my gramma got me a few years ago for Christmas. Even though I can't play it all that well Iove it to pieces because its HK. :) Its the most awesome guitar of all time! It has beautiful pink inlays and wonderful Hello Kitty decal under the strings, just another thing Hello Kitty has perfected<3

This is my all time favourite purse. John got it for me for my 19th birthday.I found it via Kandee Johnson, who has the same exact purse. Its a HUGE purse, and perfect for me<3 I love my hunny so much for buying me this perfect HK purse. Ive seen replica's but they aren't nearly as good as this purse by Longefly. It also came in black and pink. <3

Here is a basic shot of my Hello Kitty shrine. I have my Build a Bear Hello Kitty that I made for my 16th birthday, dressed in her cute HK leopard pajama's. I have my scrapbooked Hello Kitty items plastered all over my wall behind my bookshelf covered in Hello Kitty merchandise. I love my gumball machine and matching water dispenser my gramm got me for Christmas two years ago. Most of my Hello Kitty things she has gotten me as presents. :) I am such a spoiled, lucky girl. :)

My limited edition Hello Kitty Figurines, that my gramma got me for Valentines Day last year. They are so cute. They have peace signs and flowers that cover them :) So cutee. I love everything Peace, Love, Hello Kitty. <3So these were perfect!

My loves, the Hello Kitty collection by MAC make-up. John bought these for me last summer at a fair, a lady was selling hem for ten dollars a piece, which was WAY better than the $80.00 they wanted on ebay because it was a discontinued item. I've heard rumors that this is a fake batch, but I dont care. None the less they are still Hello Kitty even if they are fake MAC. <3

My miniature purse my gramma found in tucson some where. She always finds the cutest HK things. I have a bigger metal tin purse with Hello Kitty, but it has Butterflies insteald of the Peace, Love, Hello Kitty that is on this one. I personally think this one is a bit cuter, I just wish it came in a bigger size.. hahaha. Also a good friend of mine, Rene got me an awesome HK metal lunch box covered in peace signs, ha ha how cool is that? Pretty awesome if you ask a Hello Kitty lover like me. For the love of Hello Kitty, I must get going. Nighties.<3 :)

Day 4: Babies playing in my laundry :)

I didn't have time until the end of the night to get pictures for my blog, first I didn't know what to do it on and then I wasn't able to use my camera because it was busy recording in my window, which led me to calling Animal Control on Jennifer yet again, but this time I had video proof. They issued her a FINAL citation.. lets hope this time it gets through to them.

This is Bruiser's paw print that he left while I video taped his ass is my yard. This along a video was indisputable, despite Jennifer's Obvious attempt. LOL.

Before all that happened I fell asleep, because the HCG drops make me really sleepy due to all the hormones. Today has just been one of those days. But I finally got my chance to sneak in a few good pictures after everyone had gone to sleep and I was folding laundry with the babies :) Marley was being especially cute, playing hide and go seek in mama's Hello Kitty pajama pants. Roxie decided to play super-woman and dart of the bed and vanish, and Tiger burrowed deep into my clothes until growling at daddy and being put back in the kennel. <3

My crazy girl attacked my camera, and my finger hit the zoom button. Miss Marley Maelee while she was playing in my clothes and with my camera! :)

Just as the picture says, Momma's clothes are just another place for this little girl to misbehave. LOL. She is as precious as she is a little booger. :) These little guys are the light of my life<3

Awe my precious Roxie lee. She had a rough start, had a problem with her lungs like her brother whom died, Had a bad abcess on her paw that almost caused her to loose her paw, and we had to revive her along with her sister from choking. She is my princess, but I am giving her to my gramma's good friend Donna who she  works with. I am going to miss this little precious so much. <3 She is truely a unique little baby. She has a crinkled little tail that is the cutest thing I have ever seen. I will get a pic asap! :)

My beautiful girl Roxie, as they were all playing in my clothes :) She was just chillen. <3 She's to cutee.

Awe<3 This isn't from tonight due to the fact Son was in trouble for being a naughty boy and he was in the kennel, but I thought this was a cute picture of him from a couple of weeks ago. Him and his sister Marley were just chillin in their bed box in their corral we had set up for them before they decided to make to great escape, and we had to buy a $70.00 dog kennel for them to be kept in when not being watched.

Time for one more pic before we go to bed. Its another one of Marley but she is really the only one who let me take good pictures of her tonight.. and this shows her true colors :)

Ha ha. That's my crazy girl Marley, attacking the camera again. <3 She is something else ah ahah. :) Well I must be getting to bed, im crazy tired thanks HCG. Nighty night. <3

Day 3: Cloudy skies, My first day back on the HCG Diet, and random things at Wal-Mart.

The view from my window, is beautiful today. Cloudy skies and beautiful, tall Pine Tree's is what I see. The sky is a beautiful powder blue, and the breeze is slight, just enough to let you know it's still Winter but nearing Spring. I'm counting down the days til summer ha ha. By then I'll be at least 50 pounds smaller, and hopefully John, Gramma, and I can go to California as well :] Summer 2011 is going to be BOMB! Ha Ha. 

Oh the beautiful White Mountain, in Show Low, Arizona. I really am not fond of this town, but at times I enjoy it. I love the beautiful colors the sky becomes at times. It differs from very brilliant oranges, yellows, red, and pinks, to purples and beautiful blues. 

Well I'm off to Wal-Mart to shop for my diet and take random pics :]  

On our way to Wal-Mart I saw this beautiful sight, the moon high in sky at only 5:30 p.m. I love the color of the sky in this one and a few more I caught along the way.

Ahh the awesome colors of a pink and blue sunset. This was as we pulled into the parking lot of Wal-Mart. As soon as I saw it I made John stop the car so I could try to get a good picture of this beautiful sunset. 

I love the pink coming through the tree's revealing a beautiful collage of  blues and purples. I had to take two different pics of the sunset because it was so pretty<3

The first thing I saw as I walked into the store was their half of all Valentines flowers, they're not in the best of shape. Poor flowers. But non the less they still looked pretty and made the fruit section of the store smell really yummy!

A cute purse I saw as we were walking through the store. I probably wouldn't waste my money on it for myself,  as I have to many as it is, but I'm sure a a lot of girls would. 

And last but not least is the cute little sock puppet stuffed animal I suppose they were selling for Valentines Day. I remember when sock puppets were the cool thing to have ha ha ha. There wasn't very many good things to take random pics of at Wal-Mart, so I had to settle for the ones I was able to get. The reason I had gone to Wal-Mart in the first place was to get all the things I need to start my HCG diet again. I can't wait to start loosing the weight again. My goal is to be down to 160 or less by this summer, so John, gramma and I can go to California and I won't look so terrible in everything I wear. I wanna be able to wear a swim suit without being embarrassed about the way I look. I cant wait to be eating healthier again, and feeling 100%. 

My first day back on the diet was great, I took my drops first thing when I woke up, and since Im in the gorging state I can eat whatever I want because my body needs to store the fats so I'm not terribly hungry during the diet. I can only eat certain things once I'm back on the diet portion of the diet. I am allowed 3 oz of chicken, steak, or fish, one apple a day, all the water and tea I can drink. I am not allowed any kind of sugar, I have to use a non calorie supplement in replace of the real thing. Its a tough diet but so worth it! You lost up to a pound a day and you lose everyday if you stick to the strict diet. I like how the HCG hormone drops work with your body to curve cravings and hunger. This is by far the best diet I have ever tried, the only one that has worked for me. 

Now its time for a smoke and to get some school work done, since I haven't done any in a few days. I'm in the process of taking classes for my GED. I am hoping to obtain my GED by this summer as well, and John is hoping to Obtain his at the end of this year. He is doing great so far and I am very proud of him. <3 Oh how my bed is calling me already, with so much left to do. Soon enough. 

Day 2: Make-up, Movies, Interviews, and memories.

I started this morning with waking up at 8:30 a.m. and starting on my make-up. I love doing my make-up, its just another way to express yourself in many colors and different styles. It was a rough start this morning, but I'm hoping as the day goes on this day gets better. I just got back from my interview, it seems promising all I have to do is pass the background check ( which is already done because I passed the background check for the government) and wait for a call back. Ive gotta run to DES in a few minuets for John's Voc Rehab appointment and then go get my HCG drops for my diet :] then its off to the movies for our 'Movie Date'.

Ha ha this is what I look like after five hours of sleep and 1 hour 30 mins work of make-up. I have kitten scratches all over my chest, face and arms although you can't see them. My little babies don't spare me when it comes to their razor sharp claws. Thank GOODNESS for Make-Up. :] <3 It makes the world go round. 

Just as the picture says my favourite make-up of the moment. I am very fond of the Walk the Line eyeliner by Hard Candy, It lasts all day and is quite hard to get off or smudge. It is water-proof and comes in a variety of colors. It is hard to find a good quality liner that stays put all day long. I love everything MAC. My favourite shadow is the Blue Brown, and I like to mix it with a bit of Arctic White from Mica Bella. It lasts a long time and its a beautiful shade of brown. I also love the two color tone brown that is made by Hard Candy, its shimmery which I like. For foundation powder, I love using anything Physicians Formula. Its all natural mineral powder that covers just like a foundation. I like to use it after I apply my concealer and my thin layer of foundation, it helps seal in the look. I use the Revlon Perle for my eyeliner. It helps darken and create a smudged, sealed in look. And last but not least my cheap Wet and Wild liquid glass lipgloss. I love how shiny it is :] it makes my lips look like glass.

I just got home from the movies with my hunny, we went and saw Adam Sandler's new movie 'Just go with it'. It was a really good funny movie. I'm glad we got to go out tonight since we weren't able to go out last night for Valentines Day. I feel like I never get to go out and spend time with family anymore, I really wish my gramma was able to join us for the movie, I'm sure she would have enjoyed it. She works alot and I wish she had the time to enjoy some time to herself like she deserves.

We got her this beautiful bouquet on her 71st birthday (January 4th 2011). I was happy we were able to, I haven't been able to get her anything for her birthday for a long time. I hope that she has many wonderful birthday's like the last, and that I am able to get her the best gifts I possibly can. She has done so much for me and I like being able to buy her things and make her feel special.

And there she is my beautiful grandmother. Not the best picture being it was a photo I took without her knowing, and when she found out I was supposed to delete it, but that was months ago. LOL. :] She's my gramma why would I wanna delete a picture of her, specially when I have hardly any. Gotta get em while I can. <3 She is so special to me, I can't even begin to express it in words. She has helped me so much along with helping John. She is a wonderful person, and I'm the luckiest girl to have her as a mother, grandmother, and best friend.

Almost time for House of Anubis I love that show.<3 Gotta catch up on the episode that I missed. And then im off to dream land<3 Nighties.

Day 1: Valentines Day 2011

Day one: Valentines Day, February 14th, 2011.

Last night John went and got me a dozen of beautiful red roses and a cute teddy bear wearing a pink sweater, and a pink glitter bow with love on it in her ear. She holds the beautiful roses in their vase. This was part one of the best Valentines Day ever! I put my roses beside my bed on the nightstand last night and this morning on Valentines I woke up to my room smelling like fresh cut roses from the garden, it was wonderful!

And here are my beautiful roses :] I am such a lucky girl to have such an amazing man, who care so much about me.

John and I also got my gramma a cute Valentines flower pot with Parade Roses. She loves roses, and I was so happy I was able to get her something. <3 

As I sit and reflect on the day, it was one of the best days I could have asked for. It's not about the stuff you get on Valentines Day or if your single or married. Its about caring, giving, and being with the ones you love and the ones who love you. I am glad I was given another year and another Valentines with my gramma and John. I hope to have many more with both of them, as I love them both very dearly. We may fight and have our issues, but we are family, and no one can change your family. <3 

My baby girl Marley Maelee tonight on Valentines Day. She has brought so much joy to my life, along with her brother and sister. :] I did a little Valentines Photoshoot with my babies :) 

This is John's baby boy Tiger the little butt. He is one awnry little guy at only 8 weeks old. But he is a precious little kick back kitten. <3 One of the many apples of my eye.

And there is my final baby girl Roxie Lee, just as crazy as her daddy. I love her cute like a button face, and her innocent little attitude. These kittens have been a lot of work, but worth every second, tear, and drop of blood we've put into each and every one of them. 

And last but not least, my baby girl Alexz Lili, two and a half years old, and she still catches my heart like she did the day I bought her at the pet shop. She is a crazy, talented cat who has brighten many of my gloomy days. And she gave me the best present in the world, her babies to take care of because she was unable. I love this little girl so much. <3 

Today has been a wonderful day, and I don't think I could have asked for a better one. Tomarrow I have an interview at Ehmke's Childhaven Preschool. I really hope I get the job :) and then tomarrow night is date night with the hunny<3 All in all a perfect Valentines Day!