Day 12 - 20: Too much stuff going on at once & Spring Cleaning.

Ive had a lot going on lately. Been going on interviews for jobs, doing my online classes, taking care of my rug rats, cleaning the house for spring, and dealing with all kinds of drama that John's family likes to stir up. I really need to make it a point of making sure I get my blogs done everyday, ha ha thats the point of this 365. Even though I haven't been able to get on and do my blogs lately I still have been taking photo's as I get the chance. I got some great ones of Marley, and her first time outside and some of the beautiful clouds that were in the sky the other day as I longed to go on a nature walk and take pictures for my blog. I took some of the peacock feather earrings I made to put up on my website, and OH YEAH I made a website on Facebook to start selling some of things I have been making like hair bows and flowers, feather hair extensions, scrap booked items and custom made jewelery. Once I get a lot of items premade and the site up and going for real I think it will do great, there seems to be a big market for crafty items, and you know me I love crafts! Oh my this is going to be a long blog, I didn't realize all the catching up I need to do :)

One morning I woke up and it was so bright in the room, I used my pink curtains to help drown out the sun. Alexz of course thought this was an invitation to chill in the window and admire the outdoors :) She is such a little cutie, and a handful!

Miss Marley loves to play on my bed. I have a canopy bed with a basket weave type metal barring that makes up the front and the back of the bed. She just loves to weave and play through out them. She is such a momma's girl. I am so glad I was blessed with these little babies, they give me so much joy.

Momma's Princess Shy girl. She is so freaking SQUISHY! I love her. I nick-named her squishy because daddy thinks she has a smooshed face like her daddy Cooter. 

I love sky pictures. I love capturing the beauty that I see outside my window. Its one of the small things in life that I enjoy. With all the stress going on in my life, and in the world, I like knowing atleast I can look out my window and still see something beautiful.

Pure tranquility.

The son, he was pissed of in this picture. He has been a real butt lately, and Im worried that he's just gonna be a little meanie. I sure hope not though.

Two of my feather earrings that I made for my Mia Bella Couture page on facebook. I hope once its up and running people will start buying some of my products.

Me with my feather extensions and wearing one of the earrings I made. I think they look so good! But maybe thats just me, I like odd things. :)

Marley Maelee's first time outside. She loved it. She hopped and played. Until she ran into her new friend Mr. Shnookums. :)

There's my pretty boy, he is such a big cat! But, he is very loving as well. <3 Him is gramma's boy.

Baby girl sniffing the ground. She found so many new smells out there. :) She loved it.

Boogie getting comfy outside, chilling and playing with Mr. Nookums. She is so gorgeous.

My baby boy :) 

Pretty sky while she was playing :)

The son, I dressed him up in my old halloween outfit extra's for my playboy bunny costume. He was so not loving it. :) 

I think that's all im going to do for this blog tonight. I'll finish catching up late, im tired. Nighties.

Day 10 and 11: School, Job searching and spending time with my lil family..

I wasn't able to post anything on my two blogs for a few days now because I have been so overwhelmed by school and trying to find a job.  I just finished my first math class at NPC with a final grade of an A :) I am very proud of myself, I finished three months ahead of everyone else and John is soon to follow. Woot, I am so proud of him for applying himself like he has. Ive had a rough start with my diet but I'm starting to get into the hang of things again. I'm back down to 210 and my goal is to be down to anywhere in between 180-190. My ultimate goal is to get down to 160 by summertime, just in time for our little family vacation me and my gramma are hoping we can take. 

I was able to get a few pictures here and there over the last couple days, most of them are of me because I think my feather extensions are so cool! But a few I got of the kids and how big they are getting. The bigger they grow the more bratty they become. Lol.

The awesome sun shining through the tree's out in my back yard. So pretty. I love how it came out, ha ha I couldn't see a thing to take the picture the sun was so bright.

If you look really closely you can see two cool things in this picture. The coloration after the shining of the sun, it makes it look like a purple ring :) and if you look to the top left you can see a star in the sky at 3:00 p.m. Haha that's so weird. I didn't know stars were out this early.

The pretty blue sky. Just the other day it was gloomy and filled with gray skies and cold snow. I'm loving the warmth that we are getting now :) I hope it stays through summer.

Momma and \Alexz. I don't have enough pics of us together so I decided to take a few today. I love her so much, that little baby butt. <3

Roxie Lee in my tea cup :) she is so freaking cute, last night I let her roam around the bathroom while I was taking a bath and she JUMPED onto the bed with gramma<3 She loves her gramma.

This is the son, Tiger Alexzander. I finally found a good middle name for him<3 He is a litle butthead but he is so cute when he decides to be. Just look at him. Lol.

My boo, Marley Maelee. Each one of my babies names means something to me. I tried to mix names and name then after their momma and aunties :) Marley's is a mix of Daisy's middle name Mae and momma's middle name Lili. 

Tiger Alexzander jumping out of my tea cup. He didnt want to sit still so mommy could get atleast one good picture of him, so daddy had to help.. hence the hand in the background.

I got some really cool pictures of color variations in the sky, while my 'tweeker' neighbors stared and called me names because Ive been calling on their dog they refuse to take proper care of.

Pretty :)

I love the clouds in this one.

I love the blends of light pink, blue and grays that were in the sky. It looked like a storm was coming but I don't know about that anymore.

I love the sketched look of the clouds in this one. So cool.

:)

I love the darkness in this one, the sun was hiding a bit.

You don't get colors like this in big cities.. you get smog. One thing I love about the white mountains.

I wish I could paint, because these pictures would have been great for inspiration. :) Ive always wished I could paint like my Aunt Jackie. She is awesome at painting, sewing, framing, and all things crafty.

I spend most of my time though inside either on facebook or doing homework. This bloggy was extra long to try to make up for a couples days that I missed. These pictures are from the last couple days that I had a chance to take a moment and get a few shots in.

And now im off to go take my bath, nighties.

Day 9: Kathleen Francis Mitchell Behrends, my grandmother.

My grandmother's name is Kathleen Francis Mitchell Behrends, She was born on January 4th, 1940. She is 71 years of age as I type this, we just celebrated her 71st birthday in fact. She was born in Tucson, Arizona to Pearl and John Mitchell. And she is my everything. She means more to me than anyone I know, she has gotten me through the most tough times in my life. She has done so much for me, and for that I am eternally greatful. Im not perfect and I have done some pretty bad things, and all I can ask is that she forgive me because I was stupid and young when I did them and I didn't mean to hurt her or disappoint her, all I ever wanted was to make her proud. I love her more than anything in this world, and she is the only person who truely loves me for me. She never cared that I was over weight or not pretty, or whatever I thought I was. She thought I was beautiful no matter what, and she always loved me no matter what. I just wish that I could go back, and take those things back, and instead make them things she could be proud of. I don't think Ill ever be able to tell her these things for fear of her hating me. I never meant to hurt her, I just did what ever I could fit into a crowd I never belonged in, in the first place. No one ever liked me for me in the end anyway. I regret so many things and I wish that she knew how bad I truely felt about all the bad I have ever done in my life. I wanna be a good person, I wanna make her proud. I DON'T wanna end up like my mother. I'm trying so hard to be a person that will make her proud and I pray that god gives me the time to show her. I love her so much and I don't know what I would do with out her.

I love her so much<3

She is too cute<3

Cracker Barrel Flagstaff, AZ right before Christmas 2010. <3

She hates pictures, she always runs from me when I try to take them. But I love her so anyway :)

My grandmother is my rolemodel, my mother, my bestfriend and more. I hope I have her in my life for many many more years to come. I love you gramma, you mean so much to me. Thank you for everything you have every done for me, and thank you for everything you've done for the kittens, Alexz, and John. It means the world to me. <3 Love you. xoxo.

Day 8: A romantic dinner for two..

Today was a really good day, Lindsey finished my hair, I put my extensions in, John got approved for food stamps, and gramma went to Phoenix with Kevin for bussiness. Because we got the food stamps so late in the month we had to use them before they renew on the 10th. So John and I decided why not have a romantic dinner for two, since we haven't ever gotten the chance. We went to Safeway and bought sirloin medallions, sourdough bread for garlic bread, Boston Creme Pie for dessert, Sparkling Apple Cider because I cant drink alcohol due to my liver and strawberries. I decorated the dining room table, John grilled the steaks, and the night was perfect :) <3

This is what my hair looks like now that my sister frosted it and after me and my gramma died it. I like it suprisingly. Lol.

Here you can see my feather extensions which I have been waiting to put in for a week now, I have been so excited about them. I was so happy to finally be able to put them in and wear them.

This is the wonderful dinner for two me and my hunny prepared :) It was amazing! <3

My hunny sitting down to out lovely dinner<3 :)

Me and my hunny after our romantic dinner for two.<3 :)

Us again after our very yummy dinner<3 I love him so much.

Thats the last of the pics of tonight, I just wanted to write a real quick blog since I missed a day because Ive been really sleepy due to the HCG drops. And now im off to sleepy land<3 Nighties.

Day : A basket full of little loves.

I decided when I woke up that I was going to do another photo shoot with my babies, since they are growing up so fast. I found the perfect basket that I could place them in and take some really cute photo's (if only they would cooperate ha ha HA!). Everytime I was about to take the best photo yet my camera would die, SO I have to make due with the ones I got. Roxie didn't wanna chill with the rest of the group so most of them are of Tiger and Marley.

Marley Maelee after eating her delicious dinner<3 Haha look at that messy, wessy face :)

The only good picture they let me get of them all together in the basket. It would have been a really good concept if I had all the professional elements, but its good enough for me :)

Baby girl Mar Mar playing in the crinkled paper thats inside the basket, they all seemed to be mesmerized by the paper, ha ha.

Brother and sister Marley & Tiger were the only ones to cooperate for momma's little photo shoot with them<3

And the last good one I got of them together. I ended up having to crop a lot of the photo's because Roxie kept jumping out and running around on the bed chewing on the crinkled paper. I'm going to try this one, one more time when my camera is fully charged and the kids are a little more worn out.. ha ha we will see how it goes, but for now time to write my other blog and off to bed! Gotta take momma kitty to the doctor to get her stitches out and look at different hair dye so I can dye my hair before I get my FEATHER extensions :) Soo excited ha ha :) Nighties.

Day 6: Oh the weather outside is frightful..

I woke up this morning to a slight cover of snow on the ground, and more to come on the way. The skies were gray and bright all through-out the night, you could hear the wind howling all night, a sign of a bad storm coming our way. I hate the cold and wet specially when mixed together. I just hope I get to make some use of all this snow this time. I wanna go sledding!! I wanna get high off my ass and go tubing down Cyclone Mountain at sunrise. :) Ha ha.

This is the sight in my yard, well was.. it keeps snowing more and more. I love how the tree's look with snow on them, it's so pretty<3 But I wish we could have the pretty of the snow, and the warmth of winter<3 Ha ha yeah right!

 This is what it looked like when John took me to go get my last treat for the next 31 days, an Old Fashioned Rootbeer Float. I officially start my 500 calories a day diet tomorrow. Its going to be a long, tough road but I am going to stick to it no matter how hard it gets because I know it works, I have done this diet before. And I want this, I want to lose the weight so I can look better and feel better. My goal weight by summer is between 150 and 160. I know I can do it. <3 :) And I can't wait for summer to prove to everyone!

My baby girl Marley Maelee fast asleep in my lap. She is such an angel when she sleeps, however when she is awake she is a pistol full of fire. <3 She is so beautiful, and precious. I love her to pieces.

And here she is again, in color and a full little kitty body shot, she was fast asleep on her back in momma's lap, puring away. She makes my heart melt every time I see her cute face! <3

Time to sip some hot cocoa, smoke, and get ready for a long day ahead of me tomorrow filled with lots of make-up, hair, and school. Oh happy day.  Can't wait to snuggle with my snuggle bunny in my nice warm bed, nighties.<3